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Month: September 2017

Friday fun

With my back against the window, I took another bite that just exploded with flavour in my mouth. The rawfood pizza slice tasted so, so good. I had been wanting to try this restaurant for a long time. It’s just ”a whole in the wall” but with lots of love for good, clean food.

I felt lucky sitting there listening to two beautiful women talking. Finally Maria and I got to see our new found friend Birgitta again. She is such a cool lady, I’ll tell you. After working a top job at a big company within Human Resourses, raising two beautiful kids, she really knows the worth of enjoying the precious moments of life that we are handed. A great inspiration and hopefully a good friend in the making. Besides, we adore her husband Per too. 😉 

After lunch we had a swedish ”fika” but with rawfood sweets. We jumped at the treats so I forgot to take a picture until we were almost finished. A pretty good review.

So If you are looking for friday fun with an extra health-touch – go to Matapoteket at Södermalm. We can surely recomend it. <3 

The story of Märta & Maria (Part 1)

How did we meet? Who feel in love with who first? Why did Maria’s mother, father and brother see a picture of Märta before Maria did? And why is there a connection to Eurovision in all of this?

Well, let me tell you MY side of OUR STORY.

Background blah blah.. A dark necessity to grasp the upcoming goodie ?

First let me tell you about the place I was in when all of this happened. I had just come out of a really bad, three year long relationship. Without giving you any details about that I can just say that my only focus and joy in life, at the time, was my job (and also going to the gym 4-5 times a week because I needed to work some anger out of my body. Bonus- I got great abs, which I’m sure wasn’t a bad thing for getting Märta on the hook later on ?). But.. I had no plans whatsoever to meet someone new! Especially since I was still living with my ex in our apartment that we had bought together. I had signed a contract on a new apartment but I had to wait 3 months until I could move in. Worst time of my life. Coming home to someone I was actually scared of, who wasn’t nice and on top of it all – she overlapped and met someone new months before she broke up with me. But I’d like to say THANK YOU to her – the best thing you ever did was to leave me.

Eurovision – nothing can compete with that! Or can it?

Okay, so here I was. Working long hours at the office. Spring was in the air and it was finally time for Eurovision Song Contest 2013. The best time of the year! Remember, it was held in Sweden (because Loreen’s magical song ‘Euphoria’ had won the year before). I was at my friend’s place watching and I remember sitting on their sofa a bit upset. I was upset with Anouk. The famous singer. She had made a huge breakthrough with this awesome song called ‘Nobody’s wife’ back in 1997 and all the dykes knew who she was.. Now she was competing for The Netherlands with a song called ‘Birds’. I had grand expectations on her. But ‘Birds’ turned out to be a song suitable to sing in kinder garden whilst ‘Nobody’s wife’ was a song for, well all things cool!! (Any dyke here would know what I mean ? ) I was so disappointed I decided to vote for Denmark’s Emmelie de Forest’s ‘Only teardrops’ – a barefoot, sweet sixteen (and she won)!

Anouk in Eurovision 2013

The cool Anouk in the late 90’s

This is exactly what I looked like the night of Eurovision 2013

So in the middle of the equivalence of the gifts on Christmas Eve – aka the voting of Eurovision (Yes I am a Eurovision nerd and I love it!)  I got a text message from my relative Åsa.

“Go Sweden! My favorite tonight, as well as Hungary, Holland, Malta and Ireland. ? Well, I’m actually writing to hear if you are interested in a date? Good looking girl who I have only seen on photo. It’s a friend’s friend. <3 Love Åsa”

It turns out that Åsa and her friend Katja (whom I sort of knew because we’ve been sailing together on Åsa’s boat a couple of times) were hanging out at Åsa´s in Gothenburg, watching Eurovision. Katja lived in Stockholm but had gone to Gothenburg for a running race. Katja, who was in the same book club as Märta, had noticed Märtas Facebook status. It said;

“Anouk, marry me!”

And then something clicked in her brain. She said to Åsa.

“Is Maria still with that girl or is she single, because Märta and Maria would be great together!”

Åsa was like; “Maria IS SINGLE, she recently got dumped, big time”.

I replied to Åsa’s text on the subway home.

“Hello! Happiness is when the right entry WINS Eurovision! We didn’t have quite the same taste you and I (except for Ireland) Date, haha! I don’t know, maybe? Where is this human being living? Love”

Åsa replied immediately.

”Stockholm. It’s Katja who vouched for her. Around 32 years old”.

I replied;

“Do you know anything about this girl? Work with, hairstyle, funny? Off course I’m not going on a date with just anyone. (Confidence is on top on an evening like this)!”

“I’ll send your questions on to Katja! But you have to gamble a little bit to win big! Hug”

“Absolutely right!”

Two days later Åsa sent me some more info.

“Some answers. She works with children who has problems. She likes yoga but is not a vegetarian, she took a course in Miami within alternative medicine, blond hairdo cut to the shoulders. If I may say so, as your older cousin, I think it might be good to meet someone that your ex doesn’t know, perhaps just as friends at first… Take care and I hope you’ll say yes to the date and then reciprocate this! <3 ?”

Two days after this I answered Åsa.

“Hi! Yes, I definitely need to get to know some “neutral” friends here in Stockholm. Let’s do this! And if she turns out to be gorgeous then that’s just a bonus. ? Send me your specification over how you’d like a partner to be, and I’ll see what I can find for you. ?? Hug”

So what happens then?

Now here’s where it gets interesting. Absolutely NOTHING happened. I had an unreal workload at the office and work was all I could think about. Time went by and then one day I got an odd phone call from my father. He called my office (he never does) and I didn’t like that cause he disturbed me at work and I was stressed out.  

“What is it?!” I said.
“Oh nothing really. Just wanted to see what’s happening with your love life?”
“Eh.. what? Nothing is happening!”
“But Åsa showed mom, your brother and me a picture of a girl at our last family gathering. Said she hooked you up with someone nice”.

That was a bit weird I thought to myself, in the workload at first forgetting about the Eurovision blind date request. Then 30 minutes later my brother called me and asked the same question, wtf! I had to text Åsa.

“Hello Åsa! Just spoke to my dad, he said that he’d seen a picture of this girl you were talking about. Send one to me. ? Only 12 days left until I move, whoho! Hug”

A couple of days later Åsa responded that she’d been talking to Katja and that I should add Märta on Facebook. (This is the first time I hear her name). I did have a good laugh about her name “Märta”. You see, in Sweden it’s only 90-year old something who has that name (and now small children), NOBODY at our age. Anywho, Åsa then told me that I should add Märta and that they’ve told her my name as well and I answered.

“Okay sure, but I’m still at work so I’ll probably do it later tonight, or else I might lose focus. ?”

These are the photos from Märtas Facebook that really caught my attention, when I snooped around… 

To be continued…

Dream family and baby boom

Right now as I write, dear friends of ours are at the hospital just about to start the delivery of their baby. It is so exciting! I am sending them all my good thoughts and hoping that the delivery will be good and that the two moms and the little baby will be ok, with just a LITTLE bit of sweat, blood and tears through out it all. I can only imagine when it will be time for Maria and I to go for the delivery. I’m going to be like a tigress, making sure Maria gets exactely what she needs and wants, and I will be watching over her and the little one like a hawk! Just so that I can, at the end when I know everything went fine, cry like a baby 😉

Another friend, that I haven’t seen in a long time, but we used to dance together at The Balettakademin, just announced that him and his partner have now become dads. How amazing isn’t that! The babies are just popping up from all around. And it makes me so happy. And the longing to become a parent even bigger…

I never had the dream of giving birth to a child. Even when I was a child and dreamt of my future, I pictured me having maximum one child and then meeting someone who already had a child so that the family would get bigger without me having to give birth to more than one child. A bit of an odd dream for a young girl.. That was when I thought I would live the straight life and live with a man ;).. Then again I never saw the partner of my dreams in these as I now understand them to be; visions, just that I had a little boy by my side and that I might get another child in another way. The fact that it was a boy was a bit strange I thought. When I was little I felt more comfortable around girls, I had only sisters and not really any boys around. But that has been the vision and my gut feeling has now led me to here – being with my dream partner, not having to put my body through a pregnancy and delivery (I will get back to you on why that is so one day) and yet, HOPEFULLY, have the family of my dreams <3

And maybe the little boy that has been with me in my vision, might just well be our Fluffy boy Napoleon 😉 Cause one thing I know for sure is that Maria and I became a family when Napoleon came to us <3

 

 

 

 

 

 

Talking about gut feeling though… It is telling me – that is (soon) to happen. A soul is on its way. Let’s hope so <3

In the meantime I will be grateful for all the wonderful children coming our way. And today my love goes out to Judith, my niece, who turns 9 years old. Happy Birthday Judith! <3

Being sick and fluffy love

This friday Maria and I went to a café for lunch to work on our projects. I was just about to start writing a blog post that I had been longing for to write, but my body and mind didn’t function. I felt so tired and sick I only managed to get some emails sent and then went straight home to bed, shivering like an autumn leaf.

So… here I am in a not so good state but with my fluffy guardian angel Napoleon looking over me. Watching me. On the sofa, by the bed, at the table eating my green soup. It seems he is like the little angel sitting on one shoulder checking so that I eat only what is healthy for me and making sure that I am resting, resting, resting. And getting on the yoga mat, if so only for a few breaths. Let’s just say Napoleon has been my fluffy guardian angel this weekend. And trust me, he sure can switch and sit on the other so called shoulder being a little devil in disguise 😉 And I love it. His fluffy, loving, devilish company. He always makes me feel better <3

What happens now?

I recently took my 6th negative pregnancy test. Filled with hormones I ended up crying on the yoga mat on the floor. That’s a little bit out of character for me… I’m not usually someone who cries a lot, I (still) automatically shut every feeling inside of my heart so that no one can see them. That’s not how I prefer to handle my feelings, but it takes a bit of time to learn new, and I’m really trying to crawl out of my own comfort zone. In a way, the IVF-hormones has helped me to meet my feelings which I’m grateful for even if it might sound crazy.

Märta and I have decided to take a short break from our IVF-journey. It’s hard and it sucks energy from everything. We need to have some fun again! To feel normal again, reboot on love and energy and not think about hormones, sympthoms, counting all sorts of days here and there and other things that might lead to a plus on the stick. IVF does crazy things to your mind and body, that’s for sure.

There is something special about the IVF community online. All of us who are struggling, exposing our bodies for hard hormone treatments, meet various obstacles in the same storm. No one knows in advance how long the journey will be, but we know exactly what everyone is going through. I’m glad that we decided to talk openly about our journey. It has been harder than I ever imagined. I thought I was going to get pregnant in an instant and now, four inseminations and two IVF-tries later, I’m still not pregnant…

We have two little perfect embryos left in the freezer at the fertility clinic. Two more chances to get pregnant. My gut feeling recently told me that my body needed a break and I am listening.

Once again, THANK YOU for your love and support! It means a lot to us and it helps us get through this – you are PAWSOME!    

Now I’m off to Märtas Pilates class. Enjoy your evening (or morning) everyone!

Maria

 

 

Space in between

You know the breaks between things you are doing? Like a break at work, the break between classes in school etc. Today was that kind of a day. We needed a break. Some space to breath.

Those days are really important to me. I believe they are to everyone, but sometimes forgotten. Like a room is not a room without the space within it, the words are not words unless there is space in between. The space and the breaks are as significant as the things we are doing in our lives. The no-thing days, are filled with substantial. And so was this.

Maria and I were just in the moment, took a long, slow walk and a boat trip (public transport, wohoo!) to a beautiful part of central Stockholm called Djurgården.

We walked around and just in time for the rain we had found a lovely porch to sit on, with cover from the rain and a great view. And then… I discovered him! The Thinker. One of the most beautiful sculptures of all time was sitting there under the big chestnut tree, with the stunning garden and the water with passing boats just at our feet. And I had missed it! Never had I walked here before and so I had no idea that August Rodins statue was sitting and thinking right here.  The Thinker stopped me thinking, and I found the break, the space in between. If only so for a moment. But it was beautiful.

Our society of today rewards the “doing” and forgets to celebrate the “being”. So… remember the breaks, they are invaluable.

Our “baby-journey” will soon pick up again. But for now we are in the space in between (on our baby journey. Loads of other things are going on that we will soon update you on!) ..until the next embryo insertion time that is. ?

 

 

Birth(day) time and the big news!

We are so excited - today we deliver the birth of our Blog! Happy birthday!

The first blog post will evidently be about the big news! Sharing what we know you all have been waiting for 😉 None the less us! Are we pregnant or not? We have been on an emotional roaller coaster through out this whole IVF-journey (and previous inseminations) but with a good gut feeling. The question is just; Is it going to be NOW? Are we finally pregnant?

We are so happy to have you all with us on this journey of both; life, IVF and what Pawsome Moms will be up to in the future. To feel Your love and support, to read Your comments and feel the good energy coming our way. When shifting our lifes in the direciton we desire and dream of, your support is invaluable. Thank you!

Now...For the BIG NEWS - look at the video below. We'll get back to you asap with more info..!

Lots of love,

Märta and Maria

 

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