It’s time for an update, don’t you think?
During the summer we did, not one but two, IVF-trials. One with a fresh embryo and one with an embryo that had been frozen. It still amazes me that this is even possible! And I am so grateful that we live in a country where we get this help (almost) for free. I’ve joined some American IVF-groups on Facebook and boy do they all struggle. Especially with money for the treatments but also with hormones affecting their bodies and of course a lot of tough feelings. I not going to lie. This is hard. All of it.
I got so caught up in the process of conceiving a child that it almost became my entire reality. For a while I thought obsessively about what food I ate and didn’t ate. I also thought a lot about the fact that I’m still struggling with my burnout. How does this affect my body? Is it even possible to get pregnant in this state that I am in? If I am so low on energy that I barely can exercise can my body then handle a pregnancy?
The questions and thoughts just didn’t stop. That’s when I felt that I needed a break from all of it and I’m glad we made that decision together Märta and I. We have two more embryos in the freezer and I want them to get a fair chance. I need to approach our coming IVF-treatments with a much more laid-back style, otherwise I don’t think I’ll ever get pregnant.
We decided to wait for at least six months before we do another treatment. That will give me some time to get my body back on track. The hormones gave me endometrial seizures (that hurt like hell) and the cure for this is to take the opposite hormones which is going on the pill. So here we are, two lesbians on the pill, not knowing what the universe has in store for our future. ? It’s kind of exciting and we are now focusing all our energy on our new projects as viral entrepreneurs.