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Smoothie recipe for Pawsome breakfasts ?

I vary my breakfasts alot depending on ceveral things – my energy level, health, season (varm/cold) and off course what I am in the mood for.

Today I will share with you one of my favourite smoothie recipes!

Years back when I was really sick, I step by step searched for information on how to optimize my chanses for improved health. One way was through nutrition.

So here is one of my favourite things to do for an easy breakfast or “in between meals/after workout”.

For 2 persons:

2 bananas

2 oranges (red if they are in season)

A hand ful of spinach

1 cup of berries – I like to have f ex rasberries or blue berries.

200ml coconut milk or cream (half a can)

About 1 dl water (depending on how thick you want it)

1-2 table spoons (tbls) of chia seeds

Option:

Also add 1 tbls of green powder, f ex Moringa powder

Just slice it all up and mix it! It works fine to mix it with a stick blender. ?

Cheers to a healthy, pawsome living!???? (Hopefully with some sun and springtime not far away ?)

And please, let me know if you liked it. ⬇️

Lots of ❤~ Märta

Do you have the courage to bring forth the treasures that are hidden within you?

Am I being true to myself? Am I living the life I’m meant to live – a life that most honors the real me, celebrates my deepest values and respects my highest dreams? This is questions that I struggle with every day now a days. Not only if I have the courage but more importantly – what is my gift? What is it that is going to be my legacy in the world?

I think that my future is going to look (and is already looking) very different from how it would have turned out if I hadn’t undergone my journey – the burnout – over the last couple of years.

My self-esteem was built only on what I managed to achieve at work. First as an authorized accounting consultant and then later as a CFO. I always prioritized work over friends, lovers, vacation, my health and hobbies, over anything to be honest. Now when I have been on sick leave for a very long time and have had the time to discover what I enjoy doing, I have realized that I really enjoy being creative, using my imagination, read books and to travel the world with my future wife Märta. Here a thought emerges. Is this something I can make a living of in the future? It’s a thrilling (and scary) thought.

Then my realistic self emerges and tells me that I need to make a living and that I should go back to economics now that I’m feeling better and is soon to start working again. And yes, this is what is about to happen. At least for a while. The difference now is that I have discovered a whole bunch of things that I enjoy doing, that a had forgotten about when I was working all the time. And today I made a promise to myself that I am going to set aside time to really do these things, and just not dream about them anymore.

Maybe I’ll write a Scandinavian crime fiction book. Maybe I’ll try swimming or paddle. Maybe I’ll start a book club with some new friends. Maybe Märta and I’ll go to a (scary) dance class together.

Its time for me to start living a more authentic life! I think that if you begin to do things that you are frightened of it might make life less scary in the long run. Will you join me?        

What we eat when in Bali – Favourite restaurants and cafés

Let me tell you there is some great food here in Bali! For me it is important to eat clean most of the time since I notice a big difference in my health when I eat healthy. I have tried many options when it comes to healthy food and habits and have now found my way that works really great. I don’t keep it strict, but i know how to when needed. Here in Bali, especially around Ubud, it is easy to eat clean and green. Many places has got great food on their menues!

Our favourite resturants has been in and around Ubud. We will give you a taste of our favourite restaurants, starting with this one; The Yellow Flower Café. 

When it isn’t very cloudy, this café has a nice view of the volcano Gunung Agung. The place is run by an Australien woman and her Balinesian husband.  

We usually share a coconut and it comes with cute plant straws – really organic. ? 

The raw spring rolls with a peanut sauce with a touch of mint is to die for.  Basically everything on the menu is good. It is all organic, local and mostly vegetarian and vegan. Though there are some option if you are in the mood for fish or organic chicken. 

We also had a big breakfast here with smoothie bowls and papaya lime frappochino (the orange sort of sorbé you can see above). So deliscious! 

The tempeh and corn sallad doesn’t look much fun here…but it is so so good. 

The way to The Yellow Flower Café is lovely. Quite exotic for a Swede! ?? 

Let’s wraps it up with a dessert! A Balinesian rice pancake with shreded coconut, palm nectar, strawberries and bananas. Yummie! 

Lots of love and health from Bali ❤?❤ ~ Märta  

IVF-update: Two lesbians on the pill

It’s time for an update, don’t you think?

During the summer we did, not one but two, IVF-trials. One with a fresh embryo and one with an embryo that had been frozen. It still amazes me that this is even possible!  And I am so grateful that we live in a country where we get this help (almost) for free. I’ve joined some American IVF-groups on Facebook and boy do they all struggle. Especially with money for the treatments but also with hormones affecting their bodies and of course a lot of tough feelings. I not going to lie. This is hard. All of it.

I got so caught up in the process of conceiving a child that it almost became my entire reality. For a while I thought obsessively about what food I ate and didn’t ate. I also thought a lot about the fact that I’m still struggling with my burnout. How does this affect my body? Is it even possible to get pregnant in this state that I am in? If I am so low on energy that I barely can exercise can my body then handle a pregnancy?

Meet this little girl (still without a name), our friends lovely, beautiful daughter.

 The questions and thoughts just didn’t stop. That’s when I felt that I needed a break from all of it and I’m glad we made that decision together Märta and I. We have two more embryos in the freezer and I want them to get a fair chance. I need to approach our coming IVF-treatments with a much more laid-back style, otherwise I don’t think I’ll ever get pregnant.

My nephew Mario and I (He’s named after Super Mario Bros)

We love it when Mario comes to visit us in Stockholm!

We decided to wait for at least six months before we do another treatment. That will give me some time to get my body back on track. The hormones gave me endometrial seizures (that hurt like hell) and the cure for this is to take the opposite hormones which is going on the pill. So here we are, two lesbians on the pill, not knowing what the universe has in store for our future. ? It’s kind of exciting and we are now focusing all our energy on our new projects as viral entrepreneurs.

Our pawsome family 🙂

 

Happy Friday!

Maria

Time sickness and my true calling

It hit me today when I sat down to meditate and listened to an introduction by Deepak Chopra. I’ve been suffering from time sickness. He managed to put words into the feelings I experienced when I was stressing out the most before my burnout. He calls it time sickness, and this is how he describes it. 

“We all experience time according to our psychological state. Modern life has taken our experience of time to an extreme. Time is throwing your mind and body out of balance.”

What Deepak calls time sickness would be considered an epidemic.

“It is the ultimate lifestyle disorder because under the pressure and stress of racing against the clock life isn’t lived. We become robotically trained to measure every day by what we achieved or didn’t. The chores left undone, the relationships that we didn’t have time for. The exercise we put off. And so on. This is what it means to suffer from time sickness. Time sickness can be cured because it was borne in our own experience of time. We can change that experience anytime we want” – and Lord do I want to!

How do you know if you relate to time in a dysfunctional way?
Consider the following symptoms:

  • Feeling that there is never enough time in the day
  • Constantly looking at the clock and racing against it
  • Feeling the frustration and failure of not accomplishing what you want to
  • Dreading the passage of time because it sucks energy and youth  

Simply telling someone to stop doesn’t work. Trust me I know, I didn’t even listen to myself. The answear is; an inner shift of awareness.

” We don’t need a better time management we need a new state of mind.” Deepak Chopra

Deepak also said:
” Recognizing the time spent in enjoyment, and also the moment that causes anxiety, is a path to realizing your true calling”

This made me very happy! All my anxiety throughout the last 2,5 years will guide me towards my true calling and that’s what I’m dying to discover! My burnout, and all the problems that it caused me and my loved ones, will all be worth the while. Imagine finding your true calling. ?

Another wise man, and a favorite of Märta’s, is Eckhart Tolle and he said:
” If you are living in the moment consciously experiencing only what is happening now there is no disruption”.

I wanted to pass this message over to you, because it hit me so hard when I heard it. I needed to hear it and I must continue to change my way of living. I often fall back into unhealthy patterns of stress and chasing accomplishments. Imagine the relief of not having those burdens on your shoulders and to put the same amount of energy on enjoying life instead – just as it is!

 

This is the essence of an awakened life.

Namasté, Maria 

The Change (Part 2)

If you missed Part 1 you can read it here

My burnout is still hard to talk about. I guess I still feel ashamed. (How could this happen to me? How did I not see this coming? Am I a week person?) Not as ashamed as in the beginning though. During the first couple of months I couldn’t even go out on my balcony at daytime. What if the neighbors saw that I wasn’t at work! What if they thought that I was just lazy being at home. At this time, I hadn’t understood myself what has happened to me, and I sure as hell hadn’t accepted it. I’m still struggling to accept.  

My company for the long days was anxiety and pain in my body. Physically I almost didn’t make it out of the bed, I was so tired. I remember that I was really nervous before my second doctor’s appointment. Not because of the meeting with the doctor, I wasn’t sure I had enough energy for the short walk over to the doctor’s office, a 4-minute walk felt impossible for me to manage and very freightening.

During the last months before my collapse I hardly slept at night. As soon as I closed my eyed, I started to think about work. Planning and prioritizing my impossible workload at the office. I didn’t love my job anymore. It was harder and harder to be on time at the office in the morning. I was deeply depressed at this time, but I had no clue. The toxins that had accumulated in my body through lack of sleep are certain to have impaired both my physical and mental performance. My concentration and memory was also affected. Tired during the day, irritable and fatigued, and yet unable to sleep at night.

When I finally crashed I was scared, scared for my health for the first time in my life. What was happening to me? I didn’t function anymore, not my brain and not my body. It felt like I was imprisoned in my own body.

But I must tell you – this is the best thing that ever happened to me!

You must think I’m crazy, but I’m not. I look at these years (and they are not over yet) as an investment in myself and my family. I know my life will be so much better when I get through this. I know I can find real happiness in the near future because of the insights that come along with this experience. I’ve learned a lot and I’m still learning. I treat myself, my loved ones and my life differently (even though I still fall into old patterns from time to time). I’m finally excited about what the future brings!

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